Last Thursday was a rough day for me. I hadn't slept much in a week, we are dealing with some family stress and I just didn't want to get out of bed. After only getting 50 minutes of broken sleep from 3:30 AM on....I started to cry when the baby started crying at 7AM (20 min after I put her down). It was the first time in a long time that I didn't want to get out of bed but I was running on EMPTY. I wanted/needed a day off from being Mom.
After a very teary morning...all 3 of us cried off and on all morning but it was mostly C...I called my best friend L. Without hesitation she jumped in her car and came to my rescue. I just needed someone to hold the crying baby, someone to tell me that I was not a bad mom for wanting a break, someone to talk to.....I needed my best friend. L was great, she took the crying baby and encouraged me to do something for myself. I should have gone to bed but I am a horrible napper so I decided to spend some time with Z.
It was really nice to escape the crying and get out into the world. Z and I ran some errands and then got him some lunch :) I think he enjoyed having me to himself, that rarely happens these days. We returned to a sleeping baby and though I was emotionally drained, I did feel a little better. L works from home and despite being pregnant and having her own two children, she has offered to work from here a few times a month so that I can get some "ME" time. Thanks L, I am so lucky to have you in my life!
That night was suppose to be my first night out since the baby was born. I was exhausted and so I decided to cancel my plans. S, L and all of the friends that I was suppose to go out with, did not like this decision. They all put their "feet" down and insisted that I take a much needed break. And so I went.....and I am so glad that I did.
It was nice to shower to go out, I actually looked like a human being (not a zombie mommy). As I drove away I realized that it was the first time I would be away from C for more than 2 hours! The night was great...we laughed, caught up on each others lives and had a great time :) Thanks girls, I needed it!
I returned home feeling refreshed and knew that I could handle another night without sleep (which is what I got). This time instead of crying all night long, I took each waking in stride and tried to think of all that I have been blessed with. I have a very helpful husband, who doesn't mind being up at 3AM with me, two beautiful children, a very supportive family and the best friends a girl could ask for.
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