Friday, October 2, 2009

3 Weeks and Counting!!!


Okay, true panic has finally sunk in :) Z and I were looking at the October calendar the other day and he asked when the baby was coming. I drew a picture of the baby on the 24th and told him that the baby will be here in about 3 weeks. THREE WEEKS (give or take a few days)!!! I started to sweat, I started to smile, I started to feel the baby stretch it's little limbs inside of me and knew how much I would miss being pregnant......THREE WEEKS :) Now I know I am ready to be a mother of two and I am sooooo ready to hold my little baby, rock it to sleep and introduce he or she to the world (a world of people wearing masks during this scary flu season). I am not sleeping now so I am ready in that arena too.....so what am I not ready for??? LABOR.

I am not going to lie to you, it was not so pretty last time. It was one of the best and worst days of my life so far. I didn't get my epidural until I was 9 cm (I only got it because my sister worked there and she rushed back to the hospital at 4AM to make sure that I got it) and he didn't give me a big dose because I was so far along. Why was I 9 cm you ask??? You see I was forgotten in my room to labor alone (S was in and out of sleep) all night because the hospital was understaffed and they thought I was peacefully sleeping with the two doses of morphine they gave me (in reality the morphine had the opposite effect and I was super AWAKE)! I kept sending S out for help and different nurses would come in and make promises to me (hot tubs, hot compresses etc.) but they would leave my room and all would be forgotten. Even when Z was finally in my arms, I was in so much pain (epidural was long gone and Z had torn me up so badly that I had to endure 150 internal stitches down in the OR), that I didn't get to really enjoy snuggling with my new baby until hours later. It was not fun.

Let's face it, I am a big wimp (and modest to boot). I know the pain won't last long and that it will be so worth it but I am still not ready for it (is anyone ever ready for it??)! I can't wait to find out if the baby is a boy or a girl, introduce the baby to Z and start our journey as a family of 4......I just wish the stork would drop the baby at the door all clean and snuggly :) Or maybe we could go back to the days of my grandmother and I could be knocked out for the procedure and wake up to a clean and happy baby??? Oh well.....I guess I just need to suck it up and be as strong as I can be :) It will all be worth it.

17 comments:

Amanda {My Life Badly Written} said...

I came 5 weeks early with number 2 and didn't have my bags packed and my husband was still working away and couldn't fly in till the next night. But I had a c-section which I must say was fantastic recovery wise and I still have my pelvic floor!!!

Good luck!!!

CGBG said...

3 Weeks!? That's so soon! I have quite a while until I have to think about labor sometimes when I do think about it I get super nervous!

But just think...It has to be better than your first experience! Stay positive!

Alice in Wonderland said...

Well, not being a Mother myself, I'm afraid that I can't offer any advice on this subject, but I can tell you that I was there when my niece was born, and it was the most amazing experience of my life! After an hour of hand squeezing and almost being strangled, out popped this gorgeous, 9lbs angel; all big blue eyes and blonde hair, and a totally surprised look on her face!
Good luck & Big hugs!

S. said...

Hugs! Luckiest baby I know....

Infarrantly Creative said...

3 weeks!?!? Ack! I bet you are ready huh. I remember being 3 weeks away from delivering Kayla. That is when I started my operation project month. You can read about it on my blog. I decided to do a project everyday for the month of January so I didn't focus on the pending birth and obsessing. Good luck the last few weeks.

Thena said...

Happy SITS Saturday!!

Three weeks, wow.
Hope you deliver on time. None of mine was late, so when my daughter was due with her first in March. She just knew she would be the same way. LOL Emily was born a week late and 21 hours of labor. Look forward to reading more about you.

Vivienne said...

Hello :)
I don't have any kids so far but I wish you all the best, so you can have a better experience this time and enjoy snuggling with your new baby right after birth :)
Happy SITS sharefest :)

Nicolasa said...

Three weeks? Wow! That time will go by fast! That is so cute that Z is eager for the arrival of the little one. I am curious to find out if it is a boy or girl.

Stopping by from SITS!

Gretchen said...

Very exciting! Am looking forward to hearing about the wonderful bundle of joy's arrival! I'm now a follower, so I'll be back to hear the updated good news! Visting from SITS! ~Gretchen

Lisa Anne said...

It's gonna be okay. Pretty soon you're going to have a new baby in your arms and not even think about the days of being prego. Oh how much fun you are going to have. I want a baby. Kinda. lol

Alice in Wonderland said...

Just called over to say that I have a gift for you on my blog!
Big Hugs!

Alicia said...

i don't think we're ever ready for it!! but i'm sure you will do amazing!!! i'm so excited for you!!

S.E. Sward said...

Here's hoping this labor goes better than the last - maybe you can sweet-talk your sister into coming along for the entire time and keeping those overworked/understaffed (read: lazy-ass) nurses on their toes - it's a shame, but apparently we don't get decent care unless we have someone there who's advocating for us because we can't haul ourselves out of bed to do it.

Best of luck with everything!

Happy SITS Sunday Shout Out!

Theta Mom said...

I don't think your ever FULLY ready for a new baby, but it's so exciting! Just found your cute blog from SITS! Would love to follow if you follow as well. :)

Life with Kaishon said...

Stopping over from SITS! This scared me a little. I mean, I know the end result is FABULOUS, but getting there is scary! How exciting though! Good luck!

SupahMommy said...

you can do anything: you can get through anything

just keep telling yourself that no matter what happens
and for god's sake GET THE EPIDURAL A- SAP. THIS TIME.

lol! It might be totally easier this time. That's been my experience.

jen said...

you can do it mama.
i remember cora's birth and at one point telling my midwife that i didn't want to push. because i remembered how much it hurt.
but i sucked it up and you will too. on this third ... i think i've just come to the realization that it's what my body has to do. there's no stopping it ... there's no changing it. have you ever considered going unmedicated again? i would wonder if going without would have helped make it easier in the long run?? you were so close. i know you can do it. let me know if you have any questions about going unmedicated. i know it seems absurd. but i can't believe how good i felt after giving birth. and i've heard many others note that same feeling of empowerment and wellness.
i would venture to say that you will most likely have a more positive experience this time. remember ... you are the queen of that room. of that floor for god's sakes. you get what you want. when you want it. make sure of it ... and don't feel bad or worried about causing anyone some grief. you can chalk it all up to giving birth the next day. in fact ... i would walk in there with a ginormous plate of chocolate chip cookies. and keep them right next to you ... but offer one to anyone that comes in ... make sure they are good and chocolate-y. those people will be back to check on you much faster. maybe say ... "i'll have my husband grab the cookies and i have one for you when you get back." :)

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